Bella Kay - i deserve better. (official music video)

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credits:
'i deserve better' by @itsbellakayyy
directed by @thenamesneema

production company — @typefacestudio

director — @thenamesneema
executive producer — @aidenmagarian
video creative — @t_abbo
producer — @rozengiu
production manager — @jeyjeysito
1st assistant director — @cobb_was_here

choreographer — @auriana

director of photography — @thenamesneema
steadicam — @steadimandan
1st assistant camera — @ethansmithh15
2nd assistant camera — @sophiedonatella
gaffer — @sebastien.nuta
best electric — @jacksonmach_
electric — chris ginnaven

key grip — @codyingham
best grip — @boogie_savage
grip — sebastian lam

production designer — xavier martinez
set decorator — @timber_son
leadman — @leo.a.arroyo
scenic — dani manning
set dresser — doug stearns
set dresser — will cragoe
set dresser — talyn latour
set dresser — phillip steiger
set dresser — drew wall

body double — @lovesanchezzzz

atlantic marketing — @brittanyvinh
atlantic creative director — @bbyb0ix
atlantic digital marketing — @mehkiclaay @jeschwar @britt__fields

team bk management — @adammersel
team bk management — @priscillabfelten
team bk management — @wanderlustceo
team bk creative — @hayley.gregerson

bk wardrobe stylist — @rachelwaxenberg
bk wardrobe assistant — natalie steinberg @nataliesteinbergg
bk makeup artist — @ali.scharf
bk hair stylist — @mashyourhair

medic — bosco kim
water truck driver — samuel mckee
rain fx — raul deleon
rain fx — davier therrien

production assistant — @coolsiete
production assistant — @ceceish
production assistant — @jacktatar
production assistant — @soyariannalemus
production assistant — dylan fautt

bts — @p.thechemist
editor — @ethan.scripted
vfx — @zekefaust
colorist — @brianchrls

additional editing - @callaird

lyrics:
i let you treat me bad cause i hate myself
there’s a screw or two loose everybody can tell
is your Lexapro working?
you haven’t called me in months
just say you made a mistake
and you regret what you’ve done

i’d forgive you if you come back
you know i love when it ends like that
when it ends like that

i love to blame myself
it’s all on me when it goes to hell
but this time i don’t think that’s true
yeah this time i think that you
really fucked up a good thing
i’m done begging you to love me
i’m not perfect, not ever
but i still deserve better
yeah i still deserve better
i deserve, i deserve, i deserve

i deserve better than a narcissist
when we’re
screaming at each other
god i live for this
why am i
saying i’m sorry again
you’re so sweet in my head
but you’re not how i dreamt you

i’d forgive you if you come back
you know i love when it ends like that

when it ends like that
i’d forgive you i always do
i’d scratch and bite and bleed for you
for you

i love to blame myself
it’s all on me when it goes to hell
but this time i don’t think that’s true
yeah this time i think that you
really fucked up a good thing
i’m done begging you to love me
i’m not perfect, not ever
but i still deserve better
yeah i still deserve better
i deserve, i deserve, i deserve

yeah i still deserve better
i deserve, i deserve, i deserve
help me make sense of it
or tell me what i did wrong
i just wanted to love you
i just wanted to talk
can you tell me can you say
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault

it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault

it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
It’s not my fault
it’s not my